The aviodening

I always find it very hard when I remember or am reminded (as I was at James’ wedding) of the degree of animosity that my ex-girlfriend Jess feels towards me, and it always leaves me enormously saddened, because she was for a long time an immensely important part of my life and I still find that I miss her company, even just as a friend. I also have great troubles with my conscience which points out that the degree of ill will she feels towards me is a direct manifestation of how much she felt hurt by me, and I literally hate the fact that I could have unintentionally hurt another human soul so deeply, let alone one whom I had always previously sought to nurture and protect.